Day 6. July 3rd....push the reset button
As the title reveals I goofed up, slipped, caved, was weak, I am an addict, you name it, I drank alcohol the night before last. Yesterday I was hung over, thankfully I made it through some of my meetings but not all. The drinking really affects my mind my physical self my mental self. Today was a better day but I’m playing catch-up today at work for my screwed up unproductive day yesterday. This is a vicious cycle with me....I am the queen of procrastination.... oh it’s just one drink, I’ll just have a few drinks, I’ll drink another bottle, and so the story goes. I am very disappointed in myself and I am really beating myself up today. I know what I want, I know who I want to be, I envision it every day. I just cannot seem to action on it and make it happen. I am hoping that this self talk, this blog, and this recording will somehow change me. Change my lifestyle. I weighed my self before the drink day and was at 257.2. If I had stuck with it that would have been a ...